Aging

I’m beginning to feel old for the first time in my life. Sort of never thought that would happen to me. In my mind I still think of myself as 30ish but my body is telling me different. It doesn’t help that I haven’t exercised in 3 months (have exercised all my life so this is weird) which always made me feel young. I now watch my husband walk through the house in the mornings a little more stooped and looking like he may have been tackled on his way from the bed to the kitchen for coffee (aches and pains). I still can’t believe I am sleeping with a 68 year old man (and I like it)!!

One thing I am enjoying about aging is that I am not beating myself up so much for not being perfect! I know, who’s perfect in this world except Jesus Christ but I have over the edge expectations of myself that as a sinner can no way deliver.

My BF informed me the other day that “growing old is a privilege”, and my mother-in-law used to say that “old age is not what it is cracked up to be”. Its also sobering to see my precious and Godly, Mother with Alzheimer’s as a very different person now. When she was in her prime her presence and house were smiled upon by all. She kept both her personal appearance and home immaculate. Now she is comfortable without her teeth, goes days wearing the same cloths, and gets angry because she does not want a shower when asked to by her caregivers.

So what’s ahead on this journey? God only knows. We will take it day by day. I will ask Him for guidance, forgiveness, knowledge, strength, and a grateful attitude along this path. I will ask Him to continue to help me be the person He’s created me to be. I will love and forgive myself more. I will just keep growing older and that ok because that’s life. Pretty or not!